Hello World

This is my very first attempt at blogging so please bear with me. A lil info about me as I experience how this whole blogging works.

I'm one of the oldie moldies who lived through the HIV/AIDS epidemic of the 80-90's,yes last century, and watched hundreds of friends and aquaintances succumb to this awful end. I came out at Brigham Young University in Provo, Utah in 1984. I made many mistakes and "sinned" quite abit, and had to atone for those sins,so to speak. I had no mentors, others to lead the way. However as time progressed I was fortunate to find a few friends who were like me "musical". We planned events back then, mainly movie nights to hang out and just be ourselves. Very freeing for a gay MoMo at BYU. In fact I didn't lose my virginity until 18, which was my choice as I didn 't know if I could live with an ELDER for 2 years without seeing what "sex" was about. Actually at the time I never imagined what two guys could do, just that I wanted whatever it was. For a gay male, there is no "Birds and the Bees". There is no sex-talk from ecclesiastical leaders, Dad, or anyone. OR at least when I was 18 or an "innocent" teen.

I've always wondered if t here is a way to convey the message of HIV/AIDS "safe-sex" even though conventional western christianity would rather have us all abstain until marriage....being GAY, and not being one of the 17,000 couples who legally married in California,currently residing in Los Angeles, this seems a perplexing stance and time to live in.

I was raised LDS, Mormon...long-hand The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I still have a firm belief in this religion, it's my upbringing afterall...the basis of my life, my foundation. In fact, if children ever came into my life, they would be more likely to be raised LDS as well. Currently I am not a TBLDS (TrueBelieving LDS),one that attends weekly meetings but that would not disuade this decision.

Currently not in a relationship or really feeling the need right now, I'm wondering how many out there are in the same boat? I still like to hang out in groups where there isn't that tension of "MUST FIND SEXPARTNER NOW" type of mode. I also enjoy being independent,going to the movies, hiking, wandering through museums. Sometimes the enjoyment of just being alone is enough for me. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy dancing, group events, etc; however, common places to meet for "musical"/gay people are bars and clubs. They seem to get old; yes, I said to "O" word.
I'm not opposed to the bar/club scene but sometimes the peer-pressure to have an alcoholic beverage, when one is not desired, outweighs the enjoyment of actually dancing. Sometime I allow friends to enable me when asking me what I'm drinking and have said in the past "HONEY, you need a REAL drink" as I'm sipping on my sprite or cola. A predictament I have created.